Journal # 2: Chapters 4-7 [Perspective Jem]

Journal # 2: Chapters 4-7 [Perspective Jem]

My eyes are still blank. Taking a moment to realize what I just did, I thought about what happened. Again. I can’t believe I tried to put that letter n’ Boo Radley’s house. What was I thinking? It was Dill’s idea, so why was my mind tormenting me?
While I was trying to slip that letter n’, my head was spinning. I was so intimidated by anyone who was about to come and catch me. But at the same time, I was excited. I was very unanimous about doing this, since I was excited.

Of course Atticus hears the bell though. That’s why I’m still shaking about what I did. I didn’t expect to get caught. Atticus had such a malignant feeling upon him when he caught me. Dill also didn’t have to ring that bell a bunch of times. That’s what attracted attention. So in ways, it’s my fault for doing it and Dill’s fault for ringin’ that bell bunches of times. I wish Atticus never caught me. Even though Atticus wasn’t too mad and that was good.

I had to go back to the Radley house. I had to see that Boo Radley. I wish Scout didn’t fallow along. It ruined things. I didn’t need her help. She just got really annoying. I couldn’t take it, she’s actin’ so much like a girl. But of course, I couldn’t get rid of her.

As soon as I saw the Radley house, I moved teetered into their yard. I was almost getting that letter into the house. Outta nowhere, Mr.Radley comes and almost shoots us! Then it all happened.

I ran faster than the speed of light as soon as I heard the gunshot. My heart felt like it was going to stop. I breathed hard. Then Scout tripped. It scared me, I thought she was gonna get shot. I couldn’t evasion her. It scared me too much. Then my pants get off and Atticus and Miss Rachel think Dill and I strippin’.

The rest of the night and next mornin’ flew by. I was scared to tell Scout what happened. Once I saw my pants just waitin’ for me that night, my heart felt like it was gonna burst. I got so scared, I was gonna scream. Of course, I wasn’t gonna do that, I didn’t wanna wake up the Radley’s.

I had to tell Scout. It killed me inside. Once I told her, it looked like she got slapped in the face. She looked so ashamed in me. I thought about my pants all day. How they were just…waiting for me. I was thinkin’ that maybe Mr.Radley hung up my pants. He looked pretty mad when he was shootin’ the gun. As long as Atticus don’t find out, I’m good. If he finds out, I don’t know what he’ll think. He probably won’t talk to me for days and give me a look of depression and a look of anger. It hurts me inside that I’m not tellin’ him, but it’s better than what I reckon he’s a going to do to me. He’ll probably whip me too. I can just think of all those times when he did.

I shudder as I think that dirty thought. It scares me. Pain sunk in my thoughts. I wanted to scream. I was so worried that somethin’ else was a going to happen with the Radley’s. I didn’t want to think the worst but I couldn’t get the ugly thought outta my head.

I think harder about the entire thing with Dill and Scout. The pretending to be the Radley’s, the letter, the bell, and the entire issue with the Radley’s. My mind and heart went wild. I couldn’t think.

As I thought about my entire adventure, I also thought: What if it happens again, but crazier. I did see Dill kiss Scout, which was crazy, so, I’m sure I will have another “adventure.”